...i bequeath myself to the dirt to grow from the grass i love,
if you want me again,look for me under your boot-soles,
you will hardly know who i am or what i mean,
but i shall be good health to you neverteless,
and filter and fiber your blood
failing to fetch me at first,keep encouraged,
missing me one place search another,
i stop somewhere waiting for you

do you worry that you’re not liked
how long till you break
you’re happy cause you smile
but how much can you fake
an ordinary boy an ordinary name
but ordinary’s just not good enough today

alone I’m thinking
why is superman dead
is it in my head
we’ll just laugh instead
you worry about the weather and
whether or not you should hate

are you worried about your faith
kneel down and obey
you’re happy you’re in love
you need someone to hate
an ordinary girl an ordinary waist
but ordinary’s just not good enough today

doesn’t anybody ever know that the
world’s a subway…

i wanna walk to the light
hope that i can find a life
full of happiness, prosperity and love

i walk then i run
hope to reach it soon
pass through everything flashed around me
my mind race my heartbeat impatiently

still, the light a distance ahead
no matter how far i walk
no matter how fast i run
the light keeps the distance from me

exhausted... i stop a while
the devil starts annoying me
fly through my mind
drain my brain with pain i've never felt before

the light seems too far now
i can move no more
stucked and still
crying and wailing
wondering
imagining
longing.....

how can i reach the light
how can i get happiness
how can i feel love
how can i meet my dreams

the light glows more brighter
once.... twice.. and faded...
completely vanished...
gone..
dark...
chill...
the light is no more exist

i.. can run no more..
i ... can walk no more...
i.. can see no more
i... can feel no more..

my mind drifts and frozen...
in the darkness
without hope...
without love...

bluefame, Oct 19 2008, 10:50 AM
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is this what you want? satisfied?
i've been dumped and dumbed every once in my lifetime
it happened
again
again
again
and
again

so many reasons hv been spatted on my face
blah blah blah
in the end all would be the same

no place for me nor my feelings
no space for me nor my thoughts

if you saw right through my eyes
you'd find no soul resides
coz the candle has burned out long ago
and left no light inside

no, no, no....... i'm not defeated. yet
i'm trying to gain my control over my emotions
without knowing how long, without knowing how difficult it would be
but i'd be a survivor
even if you'd resided in my heart 4ever
u came right when i needed someone to relied on
and left me rightaway as i've been predicted before
thus I will never begged anyone or anything even it would be hurt not to

enjoy yourself, enjoy your new life, and may God bless you



bluefame, Nov 10 2008, 01:36 AM
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dear miya....

is it real ?
this life?
this feeling?
this imaginations?

how can i start a new life without erasing the old one
how can i accept a new love without leaving the previous one

dear miya...

tell me how am i supposed to live with so many love all around me
tell me how am i supposed to go on with all this kinds of distractions

its all so complicated
its all so confusing
what should i say to repel those loves all around me

i just wanna walk alone
alone without anybody
without confusions
without complications
without distractions
without imaginations
without cries and shouts
without angers and sadness
without everything
without my own soul....


Bluefame, Dec 23 2008, 08:00 PM
http://www.bluefame.com/index.php?autocom=...p;showentry=330

thank u
anyone else

Hey... oooh...
Sheets of empty canvas, untouched sheets of clay
Were laid spread out before me as her body once did.
All five horizons revolved around her soul
As the earth to the sun
Now the air I tasted and breathed has taken a turn

Ooh, and all I taught her was everything
Ooh, I know she gave me all that she wore
And now my bitter hands chafe beneath the clouds
Of what was everything.
Oh, the pictures have all been washed in black, tattooed everything...

I take a walk outside
I'm surrounded by some kids at play
I can feel their laughter, so why do I sear?
Oh, and twisted thoughts that spin round my head
I'm spinning, oh, I'm spinning
How quick the sun can drop away

And now my bitter hands cradle broken glass
Of what was everything?
All the pictures have all been washed in black, tattooed everything...

All the love gone bad turned my world to black
Tattooed all I see, all that I am, all I'll be... yeah...
Uh huh... uh huh... ooh...

I know someday you'll have a beautiful life,
I know you'll be a sun in somebody else's sky, but why
Why, why can't it be, can't it be mine

Hey... oooh...
Sheets of empty canvas, untouched sheets of clay
Were laid spread out before me as her body once did.
All five horizons revolved around her soul
As the earth to the sun
Now the air I tasted and breathed has taken a turn

Ooh, and all I taught her was everything
Ooh, I know she gave me all that she wore
And now my bitter hands chafe beneath the clouds
Of what was everything.
Oh, the pictures have all been washed in black, tattooed everything...

I take a walk outside
I'm surrounded by some kids at play
I can feel their laughter, so why do I sear?
Oh, and twisted thoughts that spin round my head
I'm spinning, oh, I'm spinning
How quick the sun can drop away

And now my bitter hands cradle broken glass
Of what was everything?
All the pictures have all been washed in black, tattooed everything...

All the love gone bad turned my world to black
Tattooed all I see, all that I am, all I'll be... yeah...
Uh huh... uh huh... ooh...

I know someday you'll have a beautiful life,
I know you'll be a sun in somebody else's sky, but why
Why, why can't it be, can't it be mine

Walking the boundary of memories and dreams
Forgetting which were which with old age
Not like it mattered for so long any way
When both lost their meaning day upon day

Torn in the battle between reason and faith
As it grasped hold the purpose of this life
Closest relationships calmly thrown away
While principals and pride ruled wasted days

One final journey down that empty street
Silence except for a single heart's beat
Where have you vanished to hands of time
Is this withered face I see truly mine
Riderless horses appear, only to run away
Somehow this dying life must reawaken today

In the midst of celebrating all I achieved
Yearning to make amends to all I failed
Though time has vanished for pain to sway
May I just this once find the words to say

Nostalgia growing in the garden of my mind
Keeping alive the hopeful child of the past
How calming its leaves and branches sway
Whispering louder than any words can say

Engulfed for so long within my surroundings
Now I just sit and stare at the screen
Onto everyone else I paint my projections
Unable to deal with the negative inside me

With grace she stands in her perfection
Beauty loses its luster beside her gleam
Yet in her presence I constantly demean her
In return for her giving all she has to me

Inside a lonely heart grows this obsession
So in lust with all the images that I see
Overcome with emotion for reflected emotion
While ignoring true love she grants to me

She gladly embraces my spiraling madness
To rekindle the light in our fading dream
While this coward trembles in the shadows
Perfection risks everything to satisfy me

The single instance she abandons my side
I find myself helpless as helpless can be
Face to face with my very own paranoia
As it takes its rightful vengeance upon me

Engulfed for so long within my surroundings
Now I just sit and stare at the screen
Onto everyone else I paint my projections
Unable to deal with the negative inside me

Little more than dirt in their names
For survival wandering neverending miles
All along the way their love he shames
Yet somehow the little clown still smiles

At his vast artistic strength he prides
As they journey to the poorest of places
All the time her importance he denies
While she brings joy to the tiniest faces

No longer able to take his cruel ways
With the band in freedom she follows
Yet in the end with him the clown stays
For his salvation his pain she swallows

Walking side by side on crumbling roads
Never once taking her fragile hands
Loving him with everything she knows
At the clown's kindness he only laughs

Worn down from weight of everyday life
To solitude they say their goodbye
Greeted by another clown as they arrive
Who teaches her to look to the sky

From feelings the artist can not admit
The clown's friend breaths final breath
The final image is unbearable to grit
As the clown marches to her own death

One sad day the artist hears her song
As he returns to that beautiful land
Only then does his soul sense the wrong
While he buries his head in the sand

tolong terjemahin semua dong.....kan aku ngga bgerti artinya

I can still see the light
at the end of the tunnel shine
through the dark times
even when I lose my mind

But it feels like no one
in the world is listening
and I can't ever seem
to make the right decisions

I walk around in the same haze
I'm still caught in my same ways
I'm losing time in these strange days
but somehow I always know
the right things to say

I don't know what time it is
or who’s the one to blame for this
Do I believe what I can't see
And how do you know
which way the wind blows

Cause I can feel it all around
I'm lost between the sound
And just when I think
I know, there she goes

Goodbye for now
I'm not the type to say I told you so
Goodbye for now
So long
I think the hardest part of holding on is lettin go

When will we sing
A new song
yea a brand new one

We’re still smilin as the day goes by
and how come nobody
ever knows the reasons why
Bury you deep so far
you can't see

If you're like me
who wears a broken
heart on your sleeve

Pains and struggles that
you know so well
Either time don't
It can't or it just won't tell

I'm not the type to say
I told you so
I think the hardest part
of holding on is lettin it go
Goodbye for now
Goodbye for now
So long

And you can sing until
theres no song left
And I can scream until
the world goes deaf

For every other word
left unsaid you should
have took the time to
read the sign and
see what it meant

In some ways everybody
feels alone so if the
burden is mine then
I can carry my own

If joy really comes
in the morning time
then I'm gonna sit back
and wait until the
next sunrise

Memory
Saturday, January 31st, 2009

I can taste the dust wipe out my tears

When memory choirs upon the graves

Like the old times we share everything

Dancing the crazy wolf and singing the owl

Upon misery we run happiness

On a plate of rotten bronze

To swallow the fruit of emptiness

Everything is hollow since wind blown you away

My passion and desire committed suicide

Hanging on the ceiling of my broken heart

Waitin, watchin the clock, its four oclock, its got to stop
Tell him, take no more, she practices her speech
As he opens the door, she rolls over...
Pretends to sleep as he looks her over
She lies and says shes in love with him, cant find a better man...
She dreams in color, she dreams in red, cant find a better man...
Cant find a better man

Talkin to herself, theres no one else who needs to know...
She tells herself, oh...
Memories back when she was bold and strong
And waiting for the world to come along...
Swears she knew it, now she swears hes gone
She lies and says shes in love with him, cant find a better man...
She dreams in color, she dreams in red, cant find a better man...
She lies and says she still loves him, cant find a better man...
She dreams in color, she dreams in red, cant find a better man...
Cant find a better man

She loved him, yeah...she dont want to leave this way
She feeds him, yeah...thats why shell be back again
Cant find a better man
Cant find a better...man...
Ohh...

as i gazed into this soulless morning,
as i crept to awaken my rested eye,

i saw you, one who created the dreams i am now living in..
and i was marveled, looking through your unpredicted plans..

as i sat down and prayed,
as i started my words of praises,

i saw you, in front of me, smiling,
though you know that i wasn't worth it..

as i finished my morning prayers,
as i wrapped up all of my properties,

i grew silenced, and still, i saw you.

you were never gone.
you were never away.
you stayed.
you waited.
and you smiled.

even though i had runaway,
and found no other place but yours.

thank u for joining
nchomz & rheinhart

child with lazy eyes
so soft
although fragile

dirt and stinky smell
independent child
below the blue
above the black
in the middle grey panorama

run...run....run
don't know what to catch
quickly swept away
by the greedy hands
the master of all clown and puppet

all of a sutton
there he is,again
there she is,now
right on the sidewalks
among wild grass and cold stone

dear child try to sleep
not because tired
oh no
not because static boringness

it's just because the hunger
infinite sadness
that you all never really understand

i care...
do you?

disposal value
distingshion habbit

care...
did u know it?

to give
without wishing a payback

each other
all that matter

bring a piece of joy
put in other's soul
...and maybe
just maybe they'll smile

Know it sounds funny
But I just cant stand the pain
Girl Im leaving you tomorrow
Seems to me girl
You know Ive done all I can
You see I begged, stole
And I borrowed
Ooh, thats why Im easy
Im easy like sunday morning
Thats why Im easy
Im easy like sunday morning
Why in the world
Would anyboddy put chains on me?
Ive paid my dues to make it
Everbody wants me to be
What they want me to be
Im not happy when I try to fake it!
No!
Ooh,thats why Im easy
Im easy like sunday morning
Thats why Im easy
Im easy like sunday morning
I wanna be high, so high
I wanna be free to know
The things I do are right
I wanna be free
Just me, babe!
Thats why Im easy
Im easy like sunday morning

She turned away, what was she looking at?
She was a sour girl the day that she met me
Hey, what are you looking at?
She was a happy girl the day that she left me

What would you do?
What would you do if I follow you?
What would you do? I follow

Dont turn away, what are you looking at?
He was so happy on the day that he met her
Say, what are you looking at?
I was a superman, the looks are deceiving

The rollercoaster rides a lonely one
I pay the ransom note to stop it from steaming
Hey, what are you looking at?
She was a teenage girl when she met me

What would you do?
What would you do if I follow you?
What would you do? I follow

What would you do? ....

The girl got reasons
They all got reasons

What would you do? ....

Hey, what are you looking at?
She was a happy girl the day that she left me
The day that she left me / the day that she left me
She was a happy girl the day that she left me
The day that she left me / the day that she left me
She was a happy girl the day that she left me

Keren2... walaupun ga begitu ngerti..

pathetic
with cute symphatic
a childhood without holy role models

sniffing on a paper cut
while lying naked beside sweet evils

getting dress
getting mess
no need to rest or cross stop in the back of daylight
running...running...running
before we notice
riot spread ahead
leave a sorry for the past
and unhealing scars in mother's heart

another tragic tale of the wasted childs
colourful
beautifool
from dusk til dawn,until there are no dawn left
prideless cinema

Miles away
There's hopeless smiles brighter than mine
And I need for you to come and go
Without the truth falling out

Old incisions refusing to stay
Like the sun through the trees on a cloudy day

Telephone
Socially scared and impaired
If the trees will bloom the wind can blow
Without the fruit falling out

Feels like the wind blows
Holding you with us
She takes no other
Falls light and ashes
Blooming like winter
Dry eyes and cracked lips
Under the stone wall
Withdrawn and wishless

And you brighten my life like a polystyrene hat
But it melts in the sun like a life without love
And I've waited for you so i'll keep crying out
Without you

Aerials, in the sky,
when you lose small mind,
you free your life.

Life is a waterfall,
we drink from the river,
then we turn around and put up our walls.

Swimming through the void,
we hear the word,
we lose ourselves,
but we find it all...

Cause we are the ones that want to play,
always want to go,
but you never want to stay.

And we are the ones that want to choose,
always want to play,
but you never want to lose, ooooo.

Aerials, in the sky,
when you lose small mind,
you free your life.

Aerials, so up high,
when you free your eyes,
eternal prize.

dear diary
eeeeeeeits, wait a second
wrong situation
different kind of men

under the street lights
still rainy
heading face to face
with nasty riot
blurry...

saying pray beside the pistol smoke
tears in my eyes
sweat all over the flesh
and blood drowning my little circle
my lousy cabaret

nightmare got tattoed in my head, in my mind
broken tooth
scarface
abanding lifestyle progress

hommy still fools without foods
educated & trained by money on the sidewalks
the lost money in tha hood

well, i hate to tell
sunday still come over, constantly
joy in the childhood
even so...
keep missing
apparently
eventually

since daddy smacked mommie's face

couldn't blame daddy
sober is to expensive
& the bottle grows empty

since mommy no longer here

sleep behind jail
cause mommy dear love me to much
cause mommy dear can't deal any further with daddy
a stab in midnight, daddy died

hear, here
me saying pray on the street lights
for... dear mama
for the most honest love in her eyes
will i keep standing another 20 freakin' years
to try rise mama's laugh
to rest her sorrow

iya nih .. translated di bawahnya.

Im having trouble trying to sleep
Im counting sheep but running out
As time ticks by
And still I try
No rest for crosstops in my mind
On my own... here we go
My eyes feel like theyre gonna bleed
Dried up and bulging out my skull
My mouth is dry
My face is numb
fished up and spun out in my room
On my own... here we go
My mind is set on overdrive
The clock is laughing in my face
A crooked spine
My sense dulled
Passed the point of delerium
On my own... here we go

feel so lonely here...in the inside
walking the boundaries over and over
til my skin is ripe off
the brush can't swallowed any longer, any further

shit, now i become redundant
can't speak
i lost my voice
like a castaway in the winter shore

Memories consume
Like opening the wound
I'm picking me apart again
You all assume
I'm safe here in my room
(unless I try to start again)

I don't want to be the one
The battles always choose
Cause inside I realize
That I'm the one confused

I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
I don't know why I instigate
And say what I don't mean
I don't know how I got this way
I know it's not alright
So I'm
Breaking the habit
Tonight

Clutching my cure
I tightly lock the door
I try to catch my breath again
I hurt much more
Than anytime before
I had no options left again

I'll paint it on the walls
Cause I�m the one at fault
I'll never fight again
And this is how it ends

dear,i was here
slept beneath sea of ego
flaped my concies over unconciesness

dear,your soft eyes were so honest
i've bled it

dear,please turn back the time

oh..
i'm redundant
this moron whom foolish to explain

i..do
i..do need you

nyimas, plotted me for re arrange
second change for first impression